Saturday, February 26, 2011

One Little Break

You know, I like to blog when I feel like and I just felt like a few weeks ago maybe I'll feel more up to blogging if I did the challenge. I'm sure I'll complete it eventually. But I also keep this blog as my personal journal, I don't have anything else. I don't write in one because I'm faster at typing and I hate my handwriting and I get lazy. I want to know how I feel right now in this exact moment. I'm sure I'll look back and think, wow. I was an idiot. Or maybe I'll look back and think, that's a life lesson that I learned and even though it was hard, it helped me become patient in the long run. So, let's start this.

Yes, I'm still incredibly baby hungry. And yes, I'm diving into this topic again but a different feeling about it.

When I found out I was pregnant with Olivia that was a tough time for me. N and I had just broken up and I was scared, freaking out. His reaction wasn't exactly the best one. I didn't see a smile run across his face. It was just utter disappointment of ourselves. And only being 3 weeks into the new year, it's not the most exciting news to discover when you're uncertain of the outcome.

Well, I kind of had a glimmer of the future today.

I let this girl at work borrow my What To Expect When You're Expecting book (my mom bought it for me when I was pregnant) and I knew her and her husband were trying and I thought it'd be fun for them to read until she got her own copy. She texted me on Thursday to let me know she still had it and dropped it off at my work tonight (Friday).

When I got home I was just completely exhausted and threw my purse on the floor with the book in it and started my bath. Tayler was in our bedroom and I called him over to bring me my purse. It wasn't that far away I just felt like I couldn't even move another inch. He brought it to me and when he got to me he just asked, "What do you have in your purse??" and looked around and pulled out the book. I kind of just looked at him to see his reaction and not say a word. A smile just bursted onto his face and asked, "What is this?!" I just said nonchalantly, "A book." He asked, "Are you being serious right now?"

I hugged him to hide my tears and I could feel his heart pounding and him controlling his breathing and repeated, "Honey, answer me. Please." I just wanted in that moment to look at him and share in his excitement and say yes. But I knew the true answer and all I choked out was, "I wish."

 He pulled away to look at my face and then I made my ugly/pouty face cry and bawled. He pulled me in and felt so bad. He thought it was all of his fault that I was sad. But trust me, it wasn't. He knows more than anything that I want a baby and to see that he would just be as excited as me just made me cry.

I was happy to see the completely opposite reaction of what it was like 2 years ago. It made me realize, you know, it isn't the same situation. Finding out your pregnant isn't something dreadful. It's something that most people look forward to when you're married. And maybe because I sort of had a negative reaction before that's what I had always expected to get. But seeing his reaction was bittersweet. It made me happy but it broke me apart because I wanted to say yes. Not only for me but for  him too. I thought I was going to hurt him by saying no from how happy he was.

I hadn't really planned on spilling the beans on when we we'd try to conceive. We will have to figure out where we are at the point we want to try and if we think (and the Lord thinks) its time for us to have kids at that time and the answer is no.

I don't think he knew what he was getting himself into....

Thursday, February 24, 2011

UBC Day 11

Day 11 — Write a letter to: A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Dear Jess,

I wish with all of my heart everyday that you were still here so I could talk to you in person and I wouldn't have to do leave you messages on Facebook or write you a letter as the deceased person I wish I could talk to. I miss having a best friend more than anything. Someone that was just like me. Someone who could understand my humor and no matter how bad our fights got that we could still work it out. I love you and want to tell you so much. I want to tell you about when I have good days and when I have bad days. The days I just want to cry and vent and you're there to hug me and tell me that it'll be all right because you're here. Sometimes I just want you to sit next to me while watching American Idol and we can laugh during the auditions. I remember last year when it was on that we were texting during the show and laughing at the contestants on there. And the next day you went into your work and you took a video of one of the people at the rest home singing Pants On The Ground. I crack up just thinking about it. I miss you and would give anything in this world to hug you and tell you I love you in person. I miss seeing you in my dreams because then it feels like you're still here and I can still call you. There is still a hole in my heart from the day you left but I know it will become full when we're reunited again. Love you, tootie fruitie.

Tell me: A song from your favorite band
I feel like I post one of his songs every single post but I love Tyler Ward. I can't help it. It's an issue.

I want to know: A story from your childhood.

This story will be sort of short and sweet. When I was little I guess I chased a mouse around the house and pointed at it and kept yelling, "BUNNY!" Baha. I was adorable.

Show me What’s in your makeup bag
I don't like to wear a ton of makeup...

Oh and if you wanted to know or if you're not friends with me on Facebook. I GOT THE JOB that I said I had an interview with last post. My sister's friend is going to school full time and needed a replacement. I'd like to thank my sister, RuthAnn for letting me know and suggesting me to her friend. I'd like to thank Kate for recommending me for the job. :) You guys are amazing! Peace out fast food and hello office manager!

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

UBC Day 10

Day 10 — Write a letter to: Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Dear San Antonio,
I don't know what happened between the two of us. We would be mistaken as "sisters," constantly. You felt like a sister to me. Someone I was able to talk to late at night and laugh about things. You were someone I could come to if I felt conflicted about something. You are amazing. You are so talented and you're the best momma to your little one. Something about us drifted apart when you moved back. I missed it and I wish it didn't happen. I know from time to time we will send comments on facebook but sometimes I still wish you only lived a city away and I could drive over and hold your little one when you would tell me about your day. I miss you. Lets talk soon. Really.

Tell me: A song that makes you fall asleep
I don't think I have a specific song that makes me fall asleep but if I had to pick a song, it'd be this one. I love his voice and the piano.

I want to know: About a regret you have.

I always get a knot in my stomach when I think about this because I know everyone takes it the wrong way. I wish all the time that I could've mended things with Jess before she passed away. It'll be a year next month since she's been gone. But there is still that part of me that feels like she's still here. Her soul is just lingering here to help us through our days. I know people think that I wish I mended it because she's gone now. I wanted to mend it before her passing. I just wish I could've done it sooner then maybe she might still be here. I miss and love you, bestie.

Show me A photo of your favorite place to eat.

I have a job interview t-minus 10 hours. Wish me luck! :)

Thursday, February 17, 2011

UBC Day 9

Is this EVER going to end?!!?!

Day 9 — Write a letter to: Someone you wish you could meet

Dear Taylor Swift,

Yes, everyone. I'm not afraid to admit I have a huge, giant major crush on this country star. I think some of my friends dislike her music. But guess what? I don't care. :) I love it. You don't have to. Well, I have had dreams recently that Taylor Swift is my BFF. My DREAM BFF. All for me. Too good to be true right? We did everything together. We played hopscotch. We cruised down the street. We found her some guys to write songs about. We even facebook chatted with each other while sitting next to each other. This is a super awesome friendship. In reality, I would love to meet her and possibly do all those things together. Or even to have a whole day with her. I love her music. I think other people love it too, because she is so vulnerable in her songs. Maybe that's why I like her. I'm so vunerable in my blogging and that I put it all out on a limb and hopefully someone will understand me or understand what I'm going through. I would love to collaborate a song with her. I used to write poetry when I was younger (maybe that's why I have magnificant writing skilllllz) and if she helped me write it and then we put it together for a song. Then maybe people will understand how birthmoms feel? Or what we're going through? Maybe someone out there can connect through that loss or pain. That's just how I feel and that's why I'd love to meet her.
Tell me: A song that you can dance to
I'm not a fantastic dancer. I can probably dance to anything. This is just so dance-able. You can't help but tap your toes to this beat.

I want to know: A photo you took.
Like I've said previous. I would love to go to school and do photography. Problem numero uno. I haven't done it in so long that I might not even be good at it anymore. haha. I did my sister's best friend's bridal in March 2009. Here are two of my favorites.

Show me A photo of the item you last purchased.

The Jazz Lanyard around my neck. Hoping that maybe having a huge keychain will help me not lose my keys as often as I do :) Even though the Jazz let me dow. I'm still into them. They just have to make it up to me... BIG TIME.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

UBC Day 8

Yes, I'm struggling. Haha. I've been preparing for Valentine's day and I saw the Justin Bieber movie. Oh my heck. I'm SO in love. Seriously, I've been feeling like hot and cold at the same time. I might have a fever... the BIEBER FEVER!
This is a documentation of us at the 3D Cinematic Adventure of Never Say Never. Be jealous.

Day 8 — Write a letter to: Your favorite internet friend

Okay, I guess technically this could be an internet friend. I met my friend Thor via Xbox Live. Haha. I played a match of Halo Reach (Yes, I love first person shooter games. And I like to play Swat. It's like hardcore. No shields and all headshots. I'm not going to lie. I'm pretty good. Even some guys at work feel intimidated playing with me.) So we met in a match and continued playing together and became friends. We talked over the headset. My husband also likes to play Call of Duty Black Ops with him. And I'm pretty good friends with his girlfriend. We'll chat from time to time on Facebook. Haha! It's so random. Right now, my current obsession is playing Zombies on COD BO. I've had multiple reoccuring dreams of a zombie apocalpyse. I'm just brushing up on my skills when one happens.
Thor has been the only one that I can tolerate playing video games with. All the other guys end up being d-bags. I've had some guys chew me out because it's a "guys game." They know I'm a girl because my screen name says girl in it. But they can't say it's a guys game when I kick their trash. Which has happened multiple times. :) But Thor is chill. I've been able to just vent to him about stuff that happens or has happened. And it I guess it also helps to play first person shooter games to let out some frustration in a not so real violent way. ;) And in a way I've been able to tell my story and educate adoption. He asks me questions and things. He has a daughter too. So it's cool that we have some things in common. We're both in a relationship. We both have kids. We both like to dominate in video games. He's rad. He's my favorite. :)

Tell me: A song that you know all the words to
Another Taylor Swift Cover. I just love Tyler Ward. I had a dream I married him. <3 Who doesn't know all the words to this song? Really.

I want to know: The style you had 10 years ago.
 Above was me when I was 10 or 11. 6th grade?  My style. I rocked the short hair with the outward flip. Then I also rocked the brace face. Which happened to be my favorite TV show (Braceface) it was about a girl who the day before she started Junior High had to get braces and they had magical powers. If only. This was the beginning of my ugly duckling stage. It was all through Junior high until my senior year of high school. Which I don't like to remember or document. But below is a picture of my senior picture. I haven't changed much. :P

Show me A song to match your mood.
In honor of Valentine's Day. I will play this. Oh. And I probably won't be on tomorrow since it is the blessed V-day. I will post about what I did for Tayler and what he did for me. Don't you worry. :)

Thursday, February 10, 2011

UBC Day 7

Day 7 — Write a letter to: Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Okay, I guess I will write to an ex-boyfriend. It's sort of funny to me because I went to the expectant parent group last night and it was detecting the "frogs" and finding your "prince." So I sort of reflected about that relationship with the frog and it's funny to me that I should probably be more angry about it than anything else. I guess he didn't really break my heart the hardest (I will get to that letter later) but he hurt me the worst. But I've let it go and I've forgiven him for what he did to me. It's funny to me that we were talking about frogs (they brought in stuffed animal frogs) and they were cute and fuzzy on the outside but they were diagnosed with some issues. I remember him being a frog he was cute on the outside but on the inside he had so many issues and I wanted to help him. I thought I was going to change him. And I almost feel like me being with him brought out the worst in him. And it was so hard for me to get out of the relationship because he would tell me that no one would want to be with me after what he's done to me and that we were only meant for each other. After a year of being with him I knew I needed to get out but I stayed another year and for that year. I started losing my feelings for him. He wasn't attractive to me anymore. He was sick and disgusting. I was never treated so badly in my life. But I luckily got out of it. It wasn't easy especially after the phone call that he was going to use the money for the engagement ring he saved up to buy a gun and kill me. Oh, that was a special moment and he got the cops called on him for that. Yeah and I've forgiven him right???! haha. It's been two 1/2 years since that relationship ended. I've seen him since then and he's come into my work a lot recently (ughhhh. I need to find a new job.) but I'm not just going to ignore him. A part of me just feels sorry for him. Sorry for the mental and emotional issues that he still hasn't overcome. He's sent me e-mails before I got married telling me that if it doesn't work out that he'll always be there. Yeah. He's sort of a creep. I know the way I was treated I was wrong but I guess I needed it to know what it was like to be treated right. I love my husband more than anything and he is the COMPLETE opposite of my ex. I don't have to "fix" him or change him. He's already perfect for me. I feel so grateful for my husband and for everything he has done for me in my life. He has swept me off my feet again and again. I fall in love and he's there to catch me because he's falling right along with me. It's an amazing feeling. I just want to pinch myself. Even though all the crap that I went through. Tayler still loves me. He has forgiven my past (and he may or may not want to punch my exes in the face) and loves me for the person I am today. I wasn't ready for him two 1/2 years ago. I was ready for him in October 2009. We were driving home from Andee's house and he was telling me that it was crazy that when he was 16 (I was 14) he drove through my home town and it never crossed his mind that he was going to marry a girl from that town. And I never thought I was going to deserve such an incredible guy like him. :) Tayler is my prince.

Tell me: A song that reminds you of a certain event

When I heard this song it just reminded me of a certain event. Not that I still have the feelings. Just remember the event.
I want to know: A photo that makes you happy.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

UBC Day 6

This is my 300th Post! Dang. I should probably give my blog a new look. Even though I sort of gave it a makeover when I got married. But I want to figure out how to make two side bars on my blog. One on each side. Someone should hook me up with a tutorial for that. PLEASE :)

Day 6 — Write a letter to: A stranger

Dear stranger that decided to stop my birthdaughter and her mom at Walmart,

I know there were two people that stopped them at Walmart on my birthdaughter's first birthday. I'm not talking about the sweet redheaded girl who stopped them. I'm talking about the one who decided she couldn't keep her mouth shut. The one who is anti-adoption and decided it was okay to share her opinion and how adoption is wrong. Are you kidding me? Of ALL days to stop them you decided to do it on my birthdaughter's first birthday? First of all, they didn't even know you. I don't even know you. But you decided to give an impression that you have no common courtesy and only care about yourself. Why would you even share your views to someone who clearly is for adoption and has adopted? And I know you read my blog or else you wouldn't have stopped them in a public place. If you have any opinions about my blog or about adoption. You can bring them up with ME. You were WAY out of line and yes, I'm going to stick up for them because they are family to me. They are the ones raising my daughter when I know I wouldn't give her the best possible life. Will you PLEASE tell me that's so totally wrong? It's not like they bought her off of me or snatched her out of my arms. I willing and lovingly placed her in their arms. If I were you and you recgonized them, I would've just walked on by. Because really, they could've gone on with their lives without you and you could've done the same without them in your life. So please, spare me your opinion and don't even bother telling me it to me. I can do without you in my life. If you or any of you reading this are anti-adoption then click the "x" in the right hand corner of your screen. I didn't invite you to read this. Yes, it is an open blog but give me a break I can't help it if you happen to come across it. If you really have an issue then you can go find an anti-adoption blog or website and cry your feelings out there because I don't care about you and don't even bother want to waste my time with you. Thanks! Have a great day!

Tell me: A song that reminds of you of somewhere
The story behind this that it reminds me of somewhere. It's just funny. I was in Oregon right after I had Olivia. Me and my sister were driving and we got lost and we ended up going to the Washington border and drove through Seattle and this song came on my ipod.

I want to know: Your favorite music video.

Show me A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.
Who does NOT want a baby lion???!
I want to snuggle with it.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

UBC Day 5

Day 5 — Write a letter to: Your dreams

Dear dreams,

I have always been so fascinated by you. Either in my sleeps or when I just day dream about how I want my life to be. Or in the past that I've dreamed about my future. What I wanted when I "grew up" or who I was going to marry. It may not have turned out the way I expected it to and maybe some of my dreams had to be crushed. But I know that because of my dreams I am motivated and inspired to do what I need to follow those dreams. I know I dream to find my perfect job that I went to school for. I know I'm having some troubles finding a job right now but it's not going to stop me. I may just have to put some of my dreams on hold. I know I always thought the boy that I was dating in high school or I became serious with was the man of my dreams. But I never knew what that meant until I married him. He is everything to me and has helped me make (most) of my dreams come true. Just waiting for those babies to come! And I'm excited to fulfill the dream of being with him for eternity(7 more months. Time is just flying!)! If I could say anything about dreams; don't stress the could haves. If it should have, it would have.

Tell me: A song that reminds you of someone

I want to know: Your favorite quote.

I want to see A photo of yourself two years ago.
It's unbelievable that it's been two years. I'm 18&pregnant in this picture.

bahha. not much has changed. right?

Monday, February 7, 2011

UBC Day 4

Yeah, I'm two days behind. Fail. Saturday I worked then I had a birthmom party at the R house <3 Met some new people and saw some old friends. It was fabulous. :) I laughed and got teary eyed. There is something about being in a room with all these great girls (and mr. & mrs. r, of course). I needed it that day.

The Sunday, we went to church. Oh! And the beginning of January I did a high school presentation about adoption with another girl who had placed. I had never met her before but then I saw her at church on Sunday and we are in the same ward! Small world right? I LOVE it! After church we went to a superbowl party afterwards with a friend of mine. And we were there until almost one in the morning! I love weekends like this :)

Write a letter to: Your sibling (or closest relative)

I have so many siblings but I plan to write them all letters too during this challenge.

Dear Ruthie,

I feel like I should start out with a dearblankpleaseblank.

Dear emails and text messages,
Please find a way to clearly express my sarcasm.

Me and RuthAnn are 4 years apart in age. She was the one that would get mad at me for borrowing her clothes in junior high. Only because I looked up to my older sisters. I still do ;) She's smart and successful and I hope to be just like her someday. We have a lot of the same sense of humor. Even though sometimes it can get us into trouble, we still got each others back. She's my bestie sister. I have a few or 5 of them. She's the one that I feel closest to (geographical wise too, oh provolonian). We share the same likes and dislikes in the movies and the tv shows. I know I can always go to her if I want to vent about an episode of gossip girl. She's my homeslice mcgriddle cheese. My fatron. I love her to the endddd. This letter thing is semi-gay. Hahaha. I can never think of something rad to say. So if these letters stink. SORRY!

Tell me: A song that makes you sad

I want to know: Your favorite book.

I want to see Your favorite photograph of your best friend.

Friday, February 4, 2011

UBC Day 3

Write a letter to: Your parents

Dear Parents,

I know growing up that I wasn't the most perfect child. I'm sure there were many days and nights I put you through heck. Nights that you stayed up until I was home. I know everything that you have done for me was to help me. I don't ever hate you for sending me to Anasazi or West Ridge. I know I haven't followed the perfect path. But you have showed me what it means to really appreciate it when I did get back on it. And that you guys were always going to be there even if I wandered off the path. I'm grateful that you helped me so much through my pregnancy and afterwards. And that you have always pushed me to do my best and that I'm capable of doing it. That I was also capable of finding a wonderful man and I'm grateful that you have accepted him into our family with open arms. You're the best parents ever and I hope to be great parents like you someday. :) I love you!

Tell me: A song that makes you happy

I want to know: Your favorite television program.

Tell me Your idea of the perfect first date.
Well, I know this probably wouldn't be a first date. But my perfect date in general would have to be if I woke up earllyyyy and you just took me to the airport and didn't tell me where we were going. Then we got on the plane and we went straight to disneyland. Then in the afternoon go to a dinner then take a stroll on the beach around sunset. I think that would be PERFECTION. Someone let him in on this ;) It's like my DREAM date.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

UBC Day 2

Write a letter to: Your Crush

Dear crush,
This should be a given. I guess I "crushed" on you the moment that I saw your profile picture on You could say it was love at first mouse click. And the rest is history. You're my one and my everything. I know this is a short letter. But, I can just tell you in person how much I adore you! :)
I love you my big hunk-a-lunk! You're an awesome husband and you're going to be an amazing father someday!

Tell me: Your least favorite song
This is really hard for me because I love almost every genre of music. I'll listen to something once. I love music. I have 9.8 days worth of songs on my iTunes. I'm sort of a FREAK. Okay, I have detested this song for the longest time. I know some people are going to hate me for it. Something about this song just gets under my skin. I remember we had to pick apart this song my sophomore year of high school. I never liked this song in the first place. It sounds like the guy just stuffed one of his dirty gym socks in his mouth and decided he was an AMAZING singer. Really? The song "You're beautiful" by James Blunt. It's about a guy who sees a girl on a train and she's with another DUDE. And he falls in love with her the moment that he sees her. And he just writes this entire song about her. Creeptastic? You bet it is.

I want to know: Your favorite movie.

Take A photo of something you ate today.

Yes, I'm a little kid at heart :) I know I didn't take the picture but I did eat that today!

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

UBC Day 1

Take A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was.
This was on Monday. Andee wanted me to go with her to Costco. So I went to Costco. Got some pizza. Then we went to the mall and looked at some rings and wished that we were engagement ring shopping again and had all the money in the world to buy them! Haha! Then I had to work and it was the slowest night EVER!
Write a letter to: Your Best Friend(s)

Dear Best Friend(s),

Yes, plural. I can't just think of one best friend because I've had so many help me at a certain time in my life. They are all so amazing to me. :)


This girlie has been a great friend ever since we started talking. Now I can give her a call whenever or we can always go on double date with her and her husband (that i approve of). And I know if my husband doesn't understand something about adoption that I'm frustrated with, I know I can call her and she'll understand. I'm so excited for her to start her life as a mommy. :)

 This girl is ummmazing! She is getting married soon to a wonderful guy that I approve (since he helps set up some stuff for the Sims for me!). I love hanging out with her and our love for cats and the Sims. :) She's my homegirl.

 This girl just recently got married to a wonderful man that I also approve of. :) She is such a fabulous person and she has been there at work when I was a HUGE whale and would sit and talk to me after. She's my go-to girl if I need anyone to vent my shiz to and I hope she knows she can do the same to me!

 This girl is so recklessly beautiful. She is my partner in crime. She reminds me of well... me. We've been through a lot of the same shiz in life and understand each other on a level that most people probably wouldn't understand. She gets me ;)

This girl who I've known the longest (since 6th grade) I can say that we have virtually been through everything together. We know the most about each others lives and we might be TOO close of friends ;) Haha. I'm so glad to say that we are still friends to this day!

I love you all besties!

Tell me/ I want to know: Your favorite song

This is a Taylor Swift Cover.
I like this better than the Taylor Swift version.
(Don't tell her I said that.)

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

The ULTIMATE blog challenge

Okay. I know it's been a while since I've blogged. It's because my life is not even that legit. I've had some interviews. Had some meltdowns over it. Done stressing. I should be finding out if I got a job that I had an interview on Thursday by tomorrow. But I don't think it's going to happen. Haha. Way to be optimistic right? I just don't feel right about it. We'll see though. I might just not be trying to get my hopes up. I'll still continue job searching. But if I don't find something soon. I might change my career path. I have seriously considered going to the Art Institute (if anyone has heard anything good about it, PLEASE let me know) for photography. My beautiful sister, Erika started a photography business. So if I do take that path I will go to school and then join her business. That's if she'll have me. ;) Which would mean I would have to leave the  little state of Utah and move to the northwest. It won't be for a while though. For sure. I just have to get my husband to warm up to the idea now. Nothing is better than Boise to him (Go Broncos!).

I decided to throw together all of the 30 blog day challenges that I've found searching google into one. You may join me. I'll start tomorrow. If I really feel like I need to blog about something I  might stop the challenge but start back up the next day. Like if I want to blog about my dreamboat of a husband who takes me on an amazing Valentine's Day date. :) Or if I just want to talk about adoption. I will. Or if you have any ideas. Tell me on my comments or go to my formspring.

Let the ultimate 30 day blog challenge COMMENCE!

Day 1 — Write a letter to: Your Best Friend
Tell me: Your favorite song
 I want to know: Your favorite song.
Take A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was.

Day 2 — Write a letter to:  Your Crush
Tell me: Your least favorite song
I want to know: Your favorite movie.
Take A photo of something you ate today.

Day 3 — Write a letter to: Your parents
Tell me: A song that makes you happy
I want to know: Your favorite television program.
Tell me Your idea of the perfect first date.

Day 4 — Write a letter to: Your sibling (or closest relative)
Tell me: A song that makes you sad
I want to know: Your favorite book.
I want to see Your favorite photograph of your best friend.

Day 5 — Write a letter to: Your dreams
Tell me: A song that reminds you of someone
I want to know: Your favorite quote.
I want to see A photo of yourself two years ago.

Day 6 — Write a letter to: A stranger
Tell me: A song that reminds of you of somewhere
I want to know: Your favorite music video.
Show me A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet.

Day 7 — Write a letter to: Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Tell me: A song that reminds you of a certain event
I want to know: A photo that makes you happy.
Tell me about Your dream wedding.

Day 8 — Write a letter to: Your favorite internet friend
Tell me: A song that you know all the words to
I want to know: The style you had 10 years ago.
Show me A song to match your mood.

Day 9 — Write a letter to: Someone you wish you could meet
Tell me: A song that you can dance to
I want to know: A photo you took.
Show me A photo of the item you last purchased.

Day 10 — Write a letter to: Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Tell me: A song that makes you fall asleep
I want to know: About a regret you have.
Show me A photo of our favorite place to eat.

Day 11 — Write a letter to: A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Tell me: A song from your favorite band
I want to know: A story from your childhood.
Tell me What’s in your makeup bag?

Day 12 — Write a letter to: The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Tell me: A song from a band you hate
I want to know: How you got one of your scars.
Show me A photograph of the town you live in.

Day 13 — Write a letter to: Someone you wish could forgive you
Tell me: A song that is a guilty pleasure
I want to know: How do you think others view you?
Tell me Your favorite musician and why?

Day 14 — Write a letter to: Someone you’ve drifted away from
Tell me: A song that no one would expect you to love
I want to know: About the cuteness of your pets.
I want to know A TV show you’re currently addicted to.

Day 15 — Write a letter to: The person you miss the most
Tell me: A song that describes you
I want to know: A poem you wrote.
Show me Something you don’t leave the house without.

Day 16 — Write a letter to: Someone that’s not in your state/country
Tell me: A song that you used to love but now hate
I want to know: A song that makes you cry (or nearly).
Show me Your celebrity crush.

Day 17 — Write a letter to: Someone from your childhood
Tell me: A song that you hear often on the radio
I want to know: An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.) that is your favorite.
I want to see A photo of you and your family.

Day 18 — Write a letter to: The person that you wish you could be
Tell me: A song that you wish you heard on the radio
I want to know: About your best friend.
I want to know Something you crave a lot.

Day 19 — Write a letter to: Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Tell me: A song from your favorite album
I want to know: A talent of yours.
I want to see Another picture of yourself.

Day 20 — Write a letter to: The one that broke your heart the hardest
Tell me: A song that you listen to when you’re angry
I want to know: A hobby of yours.
I want to know The meaning behind your blog name.

Day 21 — Write a letter to: Someone you judged by their first impression
Tell me: A song that you listen to when you’re happy
I want to know: A recipe.
Show me A photo of something that makes you happy.

Day 22 — Write a letter to: Someone you want to give a second chance to
Tell me: A song that you listen to when you’re sad
I want to know: Your deepest fear.
Write A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

Day 23 — Write a letter to: The last person you kissed
Tell me: A song that you want to play at your wedding
I want to know: How much you love yourself. Write a love letter to yourself.
Tell me 15 facts about you.

Day 24 — Write a letter to: The person that gave you your favorite memory
Tell me: A song that you want to play at your funeral
I want to know: Your most guilty pleasure. Reveal it.
Show me A photo of something that means a lot to you.

Day 25 — Write a letter to: The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Tell me: A song that makes you laugh
I want to know: If you have tattoos, show them. If not, talk about the tattoos you want or why you don't think they are right for you.
Show me what's in your purse?

Day 26 — Write a letter to: The last person you made a pinky promise to
Tell me: A song that you can play on an instrument
I want to know: About the last "random act of kindness" you encountered.
Show me a photo of somewhere you've been to.

Day 27 — Write a letter to: The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Tell me: A song that you wish you could play
I want to know: The last thing that made you cry.
Show me  A picture of you last year and now and how have you changed since then?

Day 28 — Write a letter to: Someone that changed your life
Tell me: A song that makes you feel guilty
I want to know: Say something to your 15 year old self.
Tell me Your favorite movie.

Day 29 — Write a letter to: The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Tell me: A song from your childhood
I want to know: your Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days.
Tell me Something you could never get tired of doing.

Day 30 — Write a letter to: Your reflection in the mirror
Tell me: Your favorite song at this time last year
 I want to know: what you have learned, if anything, about yourself in the last 30 days.
Show  me A photograph of youself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days