Wednesday, September 8, 2010

6 Months :(

The day after Tayler proposed. I received the news that my best friend, Jessica, had passed away earlier that morning. I was at work and I left early. Luckily, Tayler was home and I got a hold of Jessica's mom and she told me that she thought she had my number and texted me to come to the hospital. But, I guess not. She told me everything and I cried. I got off the phone and cried some more. I cried throughout the whole day. I asked for a fathers blessing that night because I didn't think I could make it through another day. The next day my eyelids were so swollen. I still cry. It was probably the hardest thing I had to go through besides placement. I felt guilty being happy and celebrating being engaged. I thought I should be mourning over my best friend. But I did come to a point that I needed to be happy and that she would want me to be happy.

You know what the best feeling in the world is? Having a best friend, that one person who loves you and never judges you no matter what, and no matter how badly you mess up. Someone who you have endless conversations with and can communicate by just using your eyes. That one person who just walks in your house, opens the fridge and grabs whatever they want out. Lastly it’s that person who knows so much about you that they could ruin your life in a second. But you trust them with your life and you know that they will never ever do that no matter what. You are that best friend to me. I wish you were here now. Joking with me, Being there when I needed someone to talk to desperately. I'm missing you today. But that's not any different from any other day. I love you, fruitie tootie.

These past 6 months have been the hardest without you here. It's hard to plan a wedding and knowing that you were going to be apart of it. Everything I do, I think about you. It
was so good to see your mom and sister at my bridal shower. My eyes watered when I saw
them because I just imagined you walking in with them. It's not the same without you here.

Olivia misses her favorite aunty. She'll be turning 1 in 15 days.
I wish you were here to celebrate her first birthday like you were there when she was born.
I miss my best friend
and capturing moments.

I miss her hate for BYU ;)
And going to the BYU vs. Utah game and wearing Utah attire.

Our love for Taylor Lautner and going to the cinematic adventure, the midnight showing, of New Moon.

Thank you for all the memories.
I will cherish them forever.

Thank you for watching out for me and being there when I needed a best friend.
You're the most amazing girl I have ever met.
I love you with all my heart Jessica Harris.
I can't wait to see you again :)

This is her favorite song, it describes her perfectly:


  1. I didn't know her at all! And I laugh like crazy of what an amazing cute personality! :D Oh Man! I wish I could've had the opportunity to meet her! :D Promise to introduce me to her? ;)Love ya Stef! That was an amazing tribute to her! :D She really sounds like an amazing girl, friend, and "wife" ;) She is so cute and beautiful! (of course you already knew that... )

  2. Ah Stef, I cried like baby reading her posts. Thank you for finding them and posting them! I love you and am so grateful that you were friends and you came into each others lives! Hope to see you tonight :-)