I can tell the future.

Date: Dec 20, 2008 10:21 PM

IN
a crying mood.


While watching the BYU game at my boy's house, I just started crying.


Nothing really came about it.

Most of it was tears of joys, sadness, and frustration.


Frustration:

Exboyfriend steals my friends from me so now I can't hang out with them.


Sadness:

My best friend is back at WRA so I can't talk to her.


Joy:

Realize how much I really love my boyfriend.

And I know someday he'll be a good father.

He's so amazing.


Sadness:

I feel like I don't deserve him at all.


Frustration:

I want to tell him, but I'm afraid I'll get too attached and he'll leave me.


Venting... cause no one else will listen.

--- I think this funny because I wrote that a month before I found out I was pregnant. :/
And I knew he was going to be a good father.

I found another thing I wrote:

LOVESSSS
HAVING A CUTE BOYFRIEND WHO:

OPENS DOORS FOR ME.

PUTS MY DOG OUT ON HER CHAIN.

TICKLES ME TO THE GROUND.

TAKES MY HAND AND HOLDS IT AND REFUSES TO LET GO.

KISSES MY NIECE ON THE FOREHEAD.

KISSES ME ON THE FOREHEAD.

PLAYS QUIRKLE WITH MY FAMILY.
(AND BEATS US ALL)
MAKES ME LAUGH AT MYSELF.

GIVES ME HIS SWEATSHIRT TO WEAR.

CUDDLES WITH ME DURING IRON MAN AND WHISPERS IN MY EAR.

TAKES MY FACE IN HIS HANDS AND KISSES ME.

TELLS ME I'M BEAUTIFUL WHEN I HAVEN'T SHOWERED YET THAT DAY.

MAKES A BAND TOGETHER ON GUITAR HERO.
(URBANNINJAS)

EVERYTHING ON HERE IS MY NRF :]

--- I just got these out of my old Myspace e-mails. Ha. Weird. Anyway, I posted a blog earlier. It's below this one.