tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1640786534203215797.post8749001372190256770..comments2023-10-11T08:41:39.055-07:00Comments on Stefanie Jinelle's Journey: 4. Dread.StefanieJinellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08501326936851342628noreply@blogger.comBlogger6125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1640786534203215797.post-7238811955331729902010-09-03T12:18:43.807-07:002010-09-03T12:18:43.807-07:00my daughter's birthday is in sept. and too man...my daughter's birthday is in sept. and too many times i just want to say wake me up when sept. ends. her birthdays are so hard. i relive it all and usually hold it together until the evening. i don't know how it will be this year because this is the first year that i have had contact with her.birthmothertalkshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17690158739622745922noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1640786534203215797.post-31293089997896309652010-09-02T09:21:16.876-07:002010-09-02T09:21:16.876-07:00It's been nearly 4 1/2 years since I placed my...It's been nearly 4 1/2 years since I placed my little boy. And every year, I bawl like a baby on his birthday (and many other days throughout the year!). Not because I regret anything. But because that baby was once mine. And I spent every day of 9 months with him. It will always be an emotional day. Allow yourself to mourn. Let yourself cry. It's totally ok! But just remember, you did it for HER!Kelliehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04501531677290516629noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1640786534203215797.post-58882136928946525342010-09-01T16:27:12.957-07:002010-09-01T16:27:12.957-07:00Praying for you Stefanie... I hope you can feel pe...Praying for you Stefanie... I hope you can feel peace this month :)Candacehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09095067065636257786noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1640786534203215797.post-30391112690716147972010-09-01T16:14:46.702-07:002010-09-01T16:14:46.702-07:00Yes, you will relive her birth and get taken back ...Yes, you will relive her birth and get taken back to the hospital moments ever year. I think the first birthday is the hardest, even as a parenting mom (I have a 3 year old I parent and a 6 year old I placed in an open adoption). I dread it every year for both of them because it means they are growing up and changing. <br /><br />And like you, I worry about the unknown because each year does bring new challenges and things to get through in every day life and adoption. But, I can tell you it gets easier each year, at least it did for me. You still relive those moments of pain and joy of her birth day, but at the same time you see that you've made it this far and what a blessing/awe it is to watch her grow even from a distance. You also some how are able to distance yourself from the pain a little more each year as some memories fade simply because time doesn't allow to hold every single memory and emotion. 6 years later, I still feel and remember, but it doesn't seem quite as intense as when I experienced it then. <br /><br /> *hugs* Definitely surround yourself with support around her birthday and spend time with God! I also find it healing to write to my birthdaughter on her birthday to express those overwhelming emotions to her and capture what memories I do have just for her to read one day.Leahhttp://omommawrites.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1640786534203215797.post-65882617964864176532010-09-01T12:51:50.676-07:002010-09-01T12:51:50.676-07:00i feel the same wayi feel the same wayAlyssahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03944918785321843011noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1640786534203215797.post-2688793107879656182010-09-01T12:17:49.677-07:002010-09-01T12:17:49.677-07:00This made me cry. I hope you enjoy time before you...This made me cry. I hope you enjoy time before your wedding with her.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com